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Wish You Weren’t Here (Chapter 25: The Room Full of Strangers)

At five forty-eight, a man arrived carrying nothing and announced that he had expected a lecture.

Delia was standing beside the door with a sheet of names. Twelve bookings, twelve chairs, four more stacked against the wall in case anyone arrived without booking. The room smelled faintly of polish. She had arranged the objects on a side table where people could look at them without being watched.

“There’s a short introduction,” she said. “Then we’ll talk together.”

“I thought it was about the history of the town.”

“It is. Through things people remember and use.”

He looked at the chairs. “Right.”

She offered him a seat, and he took one close to the door. He did not remove his jacket.

The next person was a woman with a grocery bag folded around something flat. Behind her came two friends who asked whether they could sit together. Delia said yes. Within ten minutes, the careful empty room had become a room full of people looking for somewhere to put their belongings.

Yasmin arrived last, though still before six. She held up both hands when Delia looked at her.

“Parking. Don’t ask.”

“You’re here.”

“I am.” Her friend glanced at the room. “Looks good.”

Delia wanted to tell her about the man who expected a lecture, but he was within hearing distance. She checked his name off the sheet instead. Twelve people had come. The number had seemed modest on a screen. In the room it felt like a great many faces.

She shut the door at six and stood beside the table.

“Thank you for coming. I’m Delia.”

She heard the slight brightness in her voice and tried to let it fall to its ordinary level. She explained the evening: ordinary objects, personal memories, a chance to notice how different people could inhabit the same place. People could speak, listen, or pass. No one needed an interesting heirloom or a good story ready.

“And if you brought something fragile, you don’t have to let anyone handle it.”

A woman near the window tightened her grip on a small box. Delia saw her relax a little.

She began with a photograph of an old bus stop and the token beside it. She kept the introduction short. Then she invited people to look at the objects and choose one if they had not brought anything of their own.

For a moment, no one moved.

Delia had anticipated this. Anticipating it did not make it pleasant.

“You can stay seated,” she added, then stopped because she had just given them two different instructions.

Yasmin rose and went to the table. The woman with the grocery bag followed. Soon several people were looking at the objects, and Delia stepped back to make room.

The man near the door stayed where he was. She approached him without crouching into his space.

“Would you like me to bring something over?”

“I’ll listen.”

“Of course.”

She left him alone.

The first story came from a woman who had brought a small wooden clothes peg. She began by apologizing for it, then described a row of gardens behind a building that no longer existed. Delia had planned to ask about the neighborhood. Before she could, another participant said she remembered those gardens too, though she thought the washing lines had run in the opposite direction.

They debated the direction for nearly a minute. Delia glanced at the clock. Then the first woman laughed and said she might have been looking from the wrong window, and the room relaxed with her.

The next person chose the postcard. He had moved to Bellweather only eight months earlier and said he could not remember anything useful.

“What did you notice when you arrived?” Delia asked.

“How early everything closes.”

Several people laughed. The man smiled, surprised by his success.

He talked about walking through the town on his first evening and finding the streets empty. A woman across from him said the same streets had felt too busy when she first came. They began comparing what they had expected. Delia listened, changing the order of her next question in her head.

Then the man near the door spoke.

“There used to be a proper market where the parking lot is.”

Delia turned toward him. “Do you remember going?”

“Every Saturday. But it’s all gone now.”

He began describing the stalls, then the businesses that had disappeared, then the people responsible for changes he disliked. His voice grew louder. The newer resident stopped smiling. Delia waited for a pause that did not arrive.

“I’m going to stop you there for a moment,” she said.

He looked at her, affronted.

“I’d like to hear more about the market itself. What did you go there to buy?”

“Everything. You could get everything.”

“One thing you remember especially?”

He frowned. “Fish. My father bought fish.”

“Did you like going with him?”

“No. It smelled terrible.”

The laugh that moved through the room was gentle enough that he joined it. Delia let him finish the memory, then turned to the woman with the small box. Her hands were still folded over it.

“Would you like a turn, or would you rather pass?”

“I’ll pass for now.”

“All right.”

Delia moved on before she could add a helpful second question.

Halfway through, she invited people to talk in pairs for five minutes. It had looked straightforward in her notes. In practice, one woman could not hear her partner over the other conversations, and the two friends who had arrived together continued talking only to each other. Delia moved a chair to a quieter corner, then asked the friends whether they would each join someone else for the next question. They agreed, though one looked disappointed.

Yasmin caught her eye from across the room and gave no signal at all, which was unexpectedly useful. Delia could not read a verdict in her friend’s face. She had to attend to the person beside her.

The woman with the grocery bag had brought a hand-drawn map on the back of an envelope. Her husband had made it for her when they first moved to town. He had drawn the route to the clinic, the bus stop, and a bakery that had closed years ago.

“He couldn’t come tonight,” she said. “He doesn’t get out much now.”

Delia bent close enough to see the map. The streets were crooked, the bakery marked with a square that might have been a cake. At the bottom, in smaller writing, was a warning about a loose paving stone.

“Does he still draw maps?”

“No. We know where everything is.”

She smoothed the envelope with the side of her hand. Delia felt the answer settle somewhere she had no time to examine.

The newer resident had been listening from the next chair. He leaned forward, pointing without touching the paper.

“Is that the street with the steep hill?”

The woman nodded.

“I walked up that on my first day. I thought the bus stop was at the top.”

“It used to be.”

“It wasn’t then.”

They laughed together. The woman turned the envelope so he could see it better. He took a creased paper bus schedule from his wallet and unfolded it beside her map. Delia had expected to spend the pair exercise moving people toward conversation. For the next few minutes she stood quietly enough that they forgot to include her.

The printed schedule had a route circled in blue. He explained that he still carried it because his phone had once died when he needed to get home. The woman said she had kept her envelope for much the same reason, though the route had changed beyond usefulness. They compared the two pieces of paper, arguing mildly about which hill was worse.

Delia glanced toward the rest of the room. The man who wanted a lecture was now explaining something to Yasmin with great concentration. Her friend listened, then asked a question that made him pause. At the far end, the woman with the box sat beside one of the friends who had arrived together. Neither was speaking. They appeared comfortable.

Delia had a second paired question on her card. She put the card in her pocket. When she gave the room a minute’s warning, several people looked surprised that the time had passed. One asked whether they could finish what they were saying.

“Please do,” she said.

The newer resident tapped the paper schedule. “I suppose I did bring something.”

“You did.”

He folded it along its worn creases and put it back in his wallet, more carefully than he had taken it out.

Delia turned back to the woman with the envelope map.

“Would you like us to photograph it for the session record?” she asked. “Only if you’re comfortable. You keep the original.”

The woman considered, then said yes, as long as her address did not appear. Delia made a note and put the envelope carefully back in its bag.

When the group came together again, the woman with the box raised her hand.

“I think I’d like to show mine now.”

Inside was a small enamel badge from a factory long since converted into other uses. She had worn it during her first week at work. The story she told was funny and brief, about getting lost on the way to a room everyone assumed she could find. Then she closed the box.

Delia did not ask for more.

The final question was supposed to concern what participants wanted someone in the future to understand about Bellweather now. One person said the traffic. Another said the trees. The man near the door said he still would have preferred more facts about the old town.

“Thank you for telling me,” Delia said. “I’ll make the description clearer if we run it again.”

He nodded, not entirely satisfied but heard. She could feel the rest of the room waiting to see whether she would defend herself. Instead she asked who had not yet had a chance to answer.

By seven thirty-five, they had run five minutes over. Delia thanked everyone and asked them to fill in the short feedback card if they wished. She had resisted the temptation to put six questions on it. There were two, and space for anything else they wanted to say.

People began putting on jackets. Two exchanged phone numbers. The woman with the map asked whether there would be another evening. Delia told her she hoped so but could not promise yet.

The man who wanted a lecture handed her his card folded in half.

“You handled it well,” he said.

“Thank you.”

“Still not what I expected.”

“I understand.”

He left. Delia watched the door close, then let out a breath she had been holding for most of the final minute.

Yasmin came over carrying two empty chairs, one awkwardly hooked against the other.

“Put those down,” Delia said. “You’ll hurt yourself.”

“I carry school furniture for a living.”

“One at a time.”

Yasmin put one down, rolling her eyes. “There. You’re still in charge.”

Delia laughed, and then, unexpectedly, her eyes filled. She turned toward the table and began gathering the objects because looking directly at Yasmin would make it worse.

“Hey,” her friend said. “You did it.”

“I know.”

“Did it feel awful?”

“Parts.”

“Most things do.”

Delia wiped beneath one eye with a finger. “Don’t make that your teaching motto.”

“Too late. It’s on my stationery.”

They cleared the room together. Yasmin told her what she had noticed: the new resident joining in, the woman waiting until she was ready, the way the room had grown louder without becoming chaotic. She also said the paired conversation had been difficult to hear.

“I know. I need more space between people.”

“Or fewer pairs talking at once.”

Delia wrote that down. She was too tired to trust herself to remember it.

Devon had left earlier in the day but had asked for a note afterward. At eight twenty, with the room restored, she sent him three lines: twelve attended, several asked about another session, feedback to follow Monday. She did not attach a photograph of herself beside the empty chairs.

Yasmin hugged her in the parking lot, then hurried home to the evening she had given up to be there. Delia sat in her car for a while before starting the engine. Her feet hurt. She could still hear the participants’ voices, fragments crossing one another. The envelope map stayed clearest: the bakery, the clinic, the loose paving stone someone had thought to mark.

At home she changed into soft clothes and sat on the sofa with the feedback cards. One said MORE LOCAL HISTORY in large letters. Another said Nice to talk to people. A third had left both questions blank and written, Please do another.

She photographed that one and sent it to Soren.

He called at nine twelve.

“How was it?”

She opened her mouth to give him the orderly version and found herself laughing instead.

“One man hated the premise. Nobody could hear the pair exercise. I ran over time at the end.”

“Oh, Delia.”

“No. It was good. I think it was good.”

He waited, and she told him about the map, the badge, the person who thought they had no memories because they were new. She spoke too quickly and doubled back. Soren asked questions when he lost the thread. Once she heard him laugh softly, and asked why.

“You sound happy.”

She looked at the card on her knee. “I am.”

“I’m glad.”

“I wish you were here.”

“Me too.”

She leaned back against the sofa, suddenly exhausted. “Next Saturday.”

“Next Saturday,” he said. “I’ve got the evening. No paint. No chairs to move.”

“Don’t promise too much.”

“I’ll hide the chairs.”

She got up with the phone against her ear and carried the card to the refrigerator. A magnet shaped like a lemon held it crookedly. She straightened it, then stood back.

“What are you doing?” Soren asked.

“Putting something where I’ll see it.”

“Good.”

She took another photograph, wider this time, with the clutter around the card included. Then she sat down to tell him the part about the fish market she had forgotten.