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His Loss, Her Secret (Chapter 3: In Her Own Name)

7 October 2026

Anika arrived with a drill, two apples and a black eye painted on one thumbnail.

“It’s watching you,” she said when she caught Maren looking. “So you don’t say we can just add another building.”

“I wasn’t going to.”

“Good. One of these apples is yours.”

Maren took the apple. She had brought coffee for them both and forgotten breakfast. The workroom Vale had provided smelled of fresh plywood. Someone had unwrapped the sample buildings and arranged them on a trolley. The red door lay separately in a shallow box; she was pleased to see that Simon hadn’t glued it into his new arrangement overnight.

The trial was one six-foot section. Maren had drawn the rest of the potential window as empty space on a large sheet, so nobody could misunderstand where the work stopped. Today she had to persuade people who liked finished things to imagine paying for an unfinished invitation. She could do that. She would prefer to do it with a mouthful of apple and Anika’s skeptical thumbnail beside her.

“He was here before eight,” Anika said.

“Who?”

Anika looked at her over the coffee lid.

“Fine. Simon.”

“He asked whether we needed anything.”

“What did you say?”

“A socket that isn’t behind the table.”

Maren smiled. She had imagined an inquiry about the great man’s personality and was relieved, then disappointed, then irritated with herself for both.

They worked. Anika marked the base while Maren built the angled frontage from borrowed plain boards. A child would see the lit street from outside, then find its continuation at reachable height inside. The display would use the toy’s actual exchangeable floors and fronts. Maren didn’t want to build a separate, miraculous object that the product in the box could never become.

At ten Simon appeared with the production lead. He wore a dark sweater today, which did nothing helpful to Maren’s concentration. She introduced Anika before he could ask about the section.

“The neat lines are hers,” she said.

“The crooked ones are deliberate,” Anika added.

Simon shook her hand. “I’ve been told to ask before I touch anything.”

“A rare and valuable instruction.”

Maren set down her pencil. “You can touch all of it.”

She brought them to the outside edge first. From there the light caught the building fronts and revealed a short street narrowing into distance. It was attractive enough to stop at; she had insisted on that much beauty. A person needed a reason to approach before they could discover permission.

Then she led them around.

“Here, the back opens. The same parts reach this lower surface. You can trade a shop for a house, or take a floor away. Nothing you change here makes the whole street disappear from outside.”

Simon leaned over the section. “Someone could empty it.”

“They could. Then somebody else could make a place for the pieces.”

“We can’t have the window empty.”

“The depth at the back stays. This is one portion.” She pointed to her empty outline. “The rest gives us the view. Here, we offer the invitation.”

The production lead asked about storage, cleaning access and the number of pieces. Maren answered what she knew and wrote down two things she didn’t. It mattered to say those out loud. She had spent too much of her twenties performing certainty while Blake accepted credit for it.

Simon moved a pair of houses and stepped backward.

“Could the street carry through on an angle here?”

He took a pencil, stopped, and held it toward her drawing.

“May I?”

She passed him a spare sheet rather than the original. He noticed, with a quick glance she couldn’t read, then drew.

His sketch was better than she wanted it to be. A slant at the corner opened the view from the main entrance. His next three lines divided the buildings into a symmetry that made her teeth ache.

“That part,” she said, touching the angle. “Yes. These parts, no.”

“A thorough review.”

“You’d like an explanation?”

“I would rather like a flattering introduction to the explanation.”

She looked up. The smile made his face warmer, more handsome than its separate parts. He could probably persuade people to retain terrible ideas by smiling across a table.

She turned the spare sheet. “You found a better approach from the entrance. That’s good. But you’ve made four identical choices inside it. If I put a hand here, I’ve spoiled the pattern before I’ve begun.”

“The pattern helps the eye.”

“Then let the eye have the outside. Let the hand have something different.”

He studied the little street, still holding the pencil. She waited. Anika made a note without looking up. Below them a trolley rattled over the floor, a long, ordinary sound in the silence.

Simon put a cross through three of his lines.

“Keep the angle?”

“I’d like to.”

“All right.”

She had prepared for a defense of his authorship. His simple agreement left her with an inconvenient rush of affection. That was too large a word for a man she had met yesterday. Appreciation, then. Appreciation with an unhelpful awareness of his shoulders.

They tried the new angle. It worked. Maren had to unpin part of her frontage to do it, and disliked that for perhaps thirty seconds. Then she saw the entrance view and was glad.

“Better,” she admitted.

He didn’t make her say whose idea it had been.

By eleven fifteen, the production lead had gone to check the build calendar. Anika packed the drill. Maren gathered her drawings into order, though they were already in order.

Simon remained beside the section.

“I’d like you to do it,” he said.

Her hand stopped over the pencil case.

“The full commission?”

“The full commission.”

She had won work before. A commission was a commission, money promised against time and skill. She shouldn’t have felt the room expand. She shouldn’t have had to put her hand flat against the table to steady a sudden, absurd grin.

Anika caught her eye and raised the painted thumbnail.

“I’ll need to see the scope,” Maren said.

Simon nodded solemnly. “Naturally.”

“And I would like to say yes after lunch, once I’ve read it.”

“Also natural.”

She smiled despite herself. “You’re making fun of me.”

“Very gently. I’m pleased. I’d like you to be pleased before we start discussing the terrible access problem behind the western plinth.”

She laughed. There it was again, the sense that she could enjoy something in his company without having to defend the enjoyment afterward.

“I am,” she said. “Pleased.”

His gaze stayed on her for one beat longer than necessary.

“Good.”


They ate their apples on a low wall outside while Maren read the scope on her phone. Anika had another client at one; Maren would not detain her for a ceremony of celebration. She offered the assistant work in clear hours and asked for an actual answer about availability.

“I want you,” she said. “But I don’t want an assumed yes.”

“I need Tuesdays for the film work. I can do other mornings like this.”

“Tuesdays off this job. Other booked work goes on the calendar.”

“And you don’t call a whole day of building ‘helping out.’”

Maren nodded. She had done that once on a smaller job, not to avoid paying but because calling something work meant admitting she needed another person. The distinction had been invisible to the person doing it.

“Paid assistant work. Your name on the team sheet. Your contributions credited.”

“Then yes.”

They clinked coffee cups that were empty enough to make a dull paper sound.

After Anika left, Maren phoned the production lead, asked two questions about fabrication costs, and requested a separate allowance for agreed extra hours. The changes came through. She read them again, signed, and sat very still with the signed document open on her screen.

She wanted to tell someone who would understand why this particular yes mattered. For a second she saw Blake at twenty-nine, raising a glass in a kitchen she had painted for them. He had been wonderful at celebrating a beginning. She had mistaken that for an ability to stay beside the work.

She called nobody. Instead she took a picture of the little trial street and sent it to Anika with the words We got it. Officially.

Then she bought herself a sandwich with expensive cheese and ate all of it.

Back in the workroom she spread out the full window drawing. Before she started measuring, she wrote Maren Hensley in the lower right corner, followed by the date. It wasn’t a claim to every useful idea in the room. It was the name that belonged on her work.

The old yellow tape fitted into her palm. She stretched it along the trial base, anchored the end, and transferred the dimension to the drawing. The initials had nearly vanished. She could still feel where Blake’s pen had pressed too hard into the soft casing, a small indentation her thumb knew without looking.

She set it beside the ruler and went on measuring.

The shared project folder contained an opening schedule as well as plans. She opened it to find the date for final installation. A row near the bottom caught her eye.

Launch host: Blake Denham.

For a moment the name seemed misplaced, like an object set into somebody else’s photograph.

Of course he was working here. Not here every day; booked to come in and speak. He did openings. He was good at them. She had seen the names of companies he worked with when she searched for his address, and had somehow allowed herself to think that finding him meant she could also decide which pieces of his life would intersect hers.

She opened his message from yesterday.

Friday. Eleven. Tell me where.

Her first impulse was to ask whether he already knew about her commission. Her second was to warn him not to say anything at work. He knew nothing worth warning him about yet. She had to stop treating every possible response as a thing she could rehearse into harmlessness.

She typed the name of a quiet cafe near a subway station, far from the flagship and her daughter’s school.

Friday at eleven. I’ll meet you there.

She sent it before she could add conditions.

“Everything all right?”

Simon stood at the open door with a rolled plan under his arm. She must have been sitting motionless for a while.

“Yes.” The word came too quickly. “I’ve confirmed a meeting I needed to arrange.”

“Bad news?”

“Not news, exactly.”

He looked at the screen she had turned facedown on the table, then politely looked away.

“Do you want five minutes?”

“No. Show me the west plinth.”

He unrolled the access drawing. She made herself attend to it. There was a hatch, an awkward pipe, a limit she could work around. She asked the right questions. Her voice sounded entirely like her own.

When he left, she wrote the Friday meeting in her notebook beside the collection time for school. Both were real. One didn’t erase the other.


Willa greeted the news of the commission with a question about whether Maren would make an entire real town. On being told no, she lost interest and wanted pasta shaped like wheels.

“I can make the usual kind,” Maren said.

“It doesn’t turn.”

“Neither does wheel pasta once it’s cooked.”

“You could have bought it.”

That was fair. Maren put ordinary pasta into the boiling water and let the criticism stand.

They ate at the cleared half of the kitchen table. The carrier containing the market sat on the other half, its lid slightly fogged where Willa had breathed on it to see inside. Maren had brought it home after photographing the trial; she didn’t want her best small pieces lost among supplies before she needed them again.

“He wrote back,” she said.

Willa stopped pushing a piece of pasta onto her fork.

“My father?”

“Yes. I’m going to speak to him on Friday.”

“Today is Wednesday.”

“It is.”

“So not tomorrow.”

“The day after.”

Willa considered the distance. “Can I come?”

“First I need to talk to him by myself. Then I’ll tell you what we said.”

“All of it?”

“The things you need to know. You can ask me questions.”

“Will you show him my picture?”

Maren hadn’t decided whether to bring a photograph. She had imagined holding back evidence as though that could make the first sentence less enormous. Willa wanted to be visible. It was such a plain request.

“Yes,” she said. “Which one?”

Her daughter thought seriously. Not the school picture, because her hair was wrong in that. Not the picture at the beach, because it didn’t show her shoes. Finally she chose one Maren had taken in the park, Willa standing on a low wall with her arms flung out and a leaf stuck to one knee.

Maren sent it to the small printer she used for portfolio references. Willa watched it emerge, waved the paper to make it dry, and inspected herself.

“He has to know I’m bigger now,” she said. “That was before.”

“I’ll tell him.”

The photograph was only five weeks old. Maren did not say so. She set it inside her notebook, where it covered part of a drawing for the Christmas town, and closed the cover carefully.